LORD, open my eyes that I may see You in everything. Aline my desires with Your's. Make me miserably uncomfortable with living in appathetic selfishness. Fill me up with your love, grace and mercy so that You are the only one recieving glory from this dust in the wind that You have made into a new and abundant life in Christ. 

I should have written this over a week ago, but I honestly didn't know how to express my graditude. Most of the time it came out as a constant smile and random dancing around the house, but I think I can muster up the words now.

As most of you know, the deadline to have all support turned in was last thursday, And with four says left, one thousand dollars was still left to raise.

I doubted.

So you, by the help of your God, return,
    hold fast to love and justice,
   and wait continually for your God."- Hosea 12:6

I worried.

"Cast all your anxieties on Him.." -1 Peter 5:7

Oh and doubted some more...

"Wait for the LORD;
    be strong, and let your heart take courage;
   wait for the LORD!"- Psalm 27:14

I was so consumed with what I needed to do that I couldn't even see right in front of me... where God was providing above and beyond what was needed. His grace is greater, still! Long story short, the night before everything was due, I officially had all of the support needed to follow God's call to Swaziland. Now do you see where the smile and dancing came from? I pray that I would dwell in how He provides! That is true joy. He provides above and beyond everything we could ever need, from our physical daily bread to the true love that we so crave and ignorantly try to find from things of this world. I pray that we will continue to sit in the shadow of  His wings, being romanced day in and day out by His unending love. I'm done looking at the waves, only to Jesus.

"I will cleanse them from all the guilt of their sin against me, and I will forgive all the guilt of their sin and rebellion against Me. And this city shall be to Me a name of joy, a praise and a glory before all the nations of the earth who shall hear of all the good that I do for them. They shall fear and tremble because of all the good and all the prosperity I provide for it." - Jeremiah 33:8-9

  

Thank you is not adequate to show my gradutide for those who have been praying and supporting this endeavor, but thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you for helping spread His Kingdom to the nations and storing up your treasures in heaven by supporting our trip. Only five more days!

Only three weeks untill I leave for Swaziland and I feel the farthest thing from ready. But will I truly ever be fully ready? He equipts those He calls, AND I'm human. My faith is being tested, my strength is basically non-existant but praise God that Jesus fills us with His faith and His strength! I'll be honest with you, raising support for this trip is one of the hardest experiences I have ever had in my life. Since March, God has provided $3,888 of the $4,375 that is needed for me to go to Swaziland. This morning, my lack-of-faith and I decided that apparently all the support already raised wasn't enough and that I needed to freak out over the few hundred dollars that are still needed. I can almost hear Jesus say, " Oh you of little faith!" I, regretfully, let fear take over.

I want to be back in Swaziland so much. I want to be ransacked with little children as we walk into the carepoints and orphanages. I want to sing, dance, laugh and tell biblestories with them. I want to help the Gogo's prepare meals for all the kids. I want to go into the hospitals, love on the residents, pray with them, speak truth with them and my teamates. I want to share in their brokenness and tell them that in Jesus, they are chosen, loved, cherished, and priceless. I crave it. But strangely, there in lies my problem. This isn't about me.

This is about the Son of God humbling Himself by coming to earth as a man. Fully God and fully man, He lived a sinless life and followed the will of His Father by being crucified on a cross for the sins of the entire world. Three days later He rose from the grave. Victory over death and victory over sin! The punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His wounds we are healed! This is about His death and life, and our life in Him! This is about His example. About being salt and light. Loving our enemies. Seeking justice. His Kingdom come. The least of these. Seeking Love. This is about our God and His glory. Not about what people think of me, not even about the people I come to know in Swaziland. This is about Him and His glory. Praise the Lord that He has given me the greatest desire to go where He has called me!

I think of the Israelites in the desert right after crossing the red sea. God provides for them time and time again and what do they do? They complain. And you know what? God always provided. Always. Their fear, complaining and worry was for nothing!

In Christ, fear vanishes. Anxiety is no more. Perfect Love casts out fear, so I will not sit and dwell in what I do not have. I will not fear because fear is not from God. God called me to go to Swaziland and I stepped out in obedience. Lord, help me not be like the Israelites. Your will is Your will. You are faithful. You will provide! 

All support has to be in by next thursday, June, 16th! Walk with me, knees to the earth, over these next few days. Let's watch God provide these last few hundred dollars.

I covet your prayers and if you would like to donate, click the link below! 

www.adventures.org/give/donate.asp?giveto=partFund&multi=

* I am a part of the Ambassador program!

**Starting THIS thursday, mail in donations will not have time to process before my trip.. only online donation can be made.

29 days. 29 DAYS! Everything seems to be slipping up so fast and the anticipation is killing me! I have been trying so hard to live and the moment, take in all that God has in store for me today...Yes, I am FAILING. I cannot wait to be in Swaziland. I cannot wait to wake up every morning to watch the sun come up over the mountains while children in green and blue school uniforms run this way and that trying to get to school on time. I cannot wait to marvel at the beauty of Swaziland, God's creation. To share encouragement and laugh with the Gogo's, while sewing purses to sell or fixing lunch for 100+ hungry bellies, singing, reading the Word of God, and learning all of there songs and hearing them tell US biblestories. To strengthen my siSwatii and try it out at the local market (secretly praying that they also know english so that they wont think we are COMPLETELY crazy!) To store up treasures in heaven with this team that God has put together for this month long trip. To encourage one another. To encourage others, together. To pour ourselves out for a people who are hurting and without Hope. To go into the hospitals, hospices and homes, praying for them and helping with anything we can. I am honored to be given this opportunity, not only to love on the people of Swaziland, but to make His Name known amoung the nations! Grace. All is grace!

Eucharisteo.

I am so thankful. Thankful for all of your prayers and support. God has called and provided, and used you all in the process! Your prayers are truly felt and conveted. I ask that you continue to be in prayer for us, as we prepare to go and for the people there, that the Holy Spirit would fill us with His boldness, guide us down His paths. 

With joy, I can announce that I only have $1,000 left to raise, with 2 whole weeks left to receive online donations! (4 whole weeks if you send the support to me personally!)

If you would like to donated, here is the information once again!

To mail to me personally:

Chandler Robertson
150 North Ridge Drive
Saltillo, MS 38866

Or for a faster, more efficient way to donate:

http://adventures.org/give/donate.asp?giveto=partFund 

The program I am apart of is the Ambassador program and, of course, my name is Hannah Chandle Robertson.

100% of donations go towards this trip to Swaziland to spread the name of Christ!

All is grace.

"God is not a belief to which you give your assent. God becomes a reality whom you know intimately, meet everyday, one whose strength becomes your strength, whose love, your love. Live this life of the presence of God long enough and when someone asks you, “Do you believe there is a God?” you may find yourself answering, “No, I do not believe there is a God. I know there is a God.”
                                                                                               ~Ernest Boyer, Jr.